As you can see, it’s been quite some time since there’s been an update. There are reasons for that, and I hope you don’t mind if this post gets more personal. I usually like to keep that sort of thing to the minimum. I know you guys are here to see dolls and crafts, but a lot of what I’m going to say ties into them as well.
The length of my/our absence stems from many factors hitting at once. At the beginning of April, I started a brand new job in a completely different industry than I’ve been in for most of my life. And then barely three weeks there and a golden opportunity fell into my lap for us to get a new and bigger place. Considering that our old place could barely hold us, much less all our crafting needs, I jumped on it. At that same time, we were also preparing for Anime Central. All of that made spring of 2014 a mighty clusterhump of very important events. Time for sewing and faceups and most of anything involving dolls that wasn’t stock for the con just dwindled and all but vanished. We got our apartment keys the day we left for ACen, and it has been a giant roller coaster since.
I’m bringing this up because I have been trying to work on commissions. Commissions that I’ve had since last year that I’m incredibly grateful the customers have been so patient with me, as it’s literally been one thing after another since fall of last year. That being said, it might sound like excuses, but all of this up and down came with a massive fluctuation of emotions and manic-depressive bursts. I didn’t touch my sewing machine for over a month, the idea of doing anything sent me into anxiety. This week, after we finally got settled and unpacked the last box, I took a deep breath, turned on my sewing machine and got to work.
Again, I have to thank everyone that is waiting on a commission from me from the bottom of my heart. I don’t know what I would do without your patience and your understanding. I was scared of what would happen if I admitted to people that were relying on me that I was having issues. And I realized that artists in general face heavy burdens, not only in their personal lives surrounding their art, but within the hobby as well. I look around me and I see other tailors that can make beautiful things. Sometimes better, sometimes faster, and I’m in awe. I’m inspired. But I’m also sometimes jealous and self-conscious. When I was working on the AoT jacket, got all the way to the finishing touches and realized I would have to do it over again, I was heartbroken. I was discouraged. And it took me this long to convince myself that that’s okay. It’s going to happen, it has to happen for us to fall down and then get back up to make it better.
As of right now, I’m cutting out the new pattern pieces for the jacket. I’m picking up the Killua commission I’ve had since before the con again. I’m going to get myself together and do this. But I wanted to make sure you all knew. More than just another email with my reasons laid out in the hopes that you’ll be patient still, but also to those of you that follow and wonder why there haven’t been posts. Or even if you’re another artist passing by and happen to read this. I fell down, but I’m getting back up. It’s been a long wait, and I am truly sorry. But I love my dolls, I love the hobby, I love my customers and their ideas, and I love Crimson Chimera too much to lose any of it.
Thank you for sticking with me, and please look forward to good things to come.